experience, Family, Poetry

Little Imprints

They say you can never lose something you never had
But what a beautiful thing it is to have loved
Someone that was so close, yet far away
How do we say good-bye?

Like time suspended,
A wound untended,
You and us

Your little imprints on our hearts forever
In Memoriam

 

Culture, experience, life, Random, roads

Of Memories And Moving On

A memory. It’s like sand, brittle rock — a shard of the original substance, a snapshot in a long and confusing movie, a particle of space and time. It’s minuscule but it lingers. It will swallow you up if you let it. It’s like going on a fast, you feel satisfied at first, but you always end up starving.

You can explain a memory to someone, but you can’t make them feel it. You can’t describe how your heart skips a beat when a certain someone looks deeply into your eyes. You can’t recreate the overwhelming content that rushes over when you win after losing for so long. You can’t explain the adrenaline surging through when you are on a roller coaster.

We all get frustrated when we romanticize the past. We miss the things we’ve lost, the places we’ve left, and the people we used to be. We miss the times that were familiar, and we long for the moments that have gone by. But you can’t live through memories, and you don’t grow by being comfortable. You have to fail before you can dream, and you have to hurt before you can love. You must bleed for the wound to heal, but eventually you need to slap on a band-aid and get on with your life.

And that’s what I try to do.

A memory: I was drowning.
And then I learned how to swim.
Towards a brighter future.

experience, federer, life, Love, Writing Challenges

Days of My Life

I have a habit of jotting down the “small” things that I experience in my day-to-day life. Been doing this for 3 years now. At times, I randomly pick a page and start reading through. You would be surprised at how much I enjoy reliving those moments.

Inspired by this post, putting forth before you, a peek into the days of my life (Yes yes, it is a F.R.I.E.N.D.S reference)


Just chilling

Sitting by yourself in an empty break out room – coke in hand and humming your favorite song – isolated yet connected – inner peace \m/

Wake up late in the morning – get ready slowly – reach work 2 hours late – Team lunch (to top it off donuts) – passing time reading testimonials – mind numbing violin cover – listening to IR with eyes closed –   “joint” late night escapade


Moosic is very important to me.

Bridge Over Troubled Water -> one of the best comforting songs ever. Erases the pain makes me feel so warm and cozy. I have never felt this way about the song. Whether it is the lyrics or the mesmerizing vocals or the sheer beauty of the floating piano notes in the BG really don’t know. But this is one feeling that I can never ever forget.

Hotel California… any time of year, you can find it here..

Here’s to finishing super overdue minor things and my very own super-duper guitar!!! YAY \m/ 🙂


Desperate for Motivation

Okay I really need to stop lazing and type those damn emails and be done with this!


Federer – Yes I am a FedTard!

Seeing the reactions of fan to Sachin’s retirement, I wonder how I will be when Federer retires :\ Not good, not good at all. Okay now happy thoughts happy thoughts.


FOOOOOOOOOOD

Tiramisu DOT

Unintentional Loud Burp Moment – wants to crawl under a rock and die 😦

Best way to torture yourself – Browse through food recipes when fasting. Mind numbing pangs of hunger.

A surprise always brings a smile. Especially if they are chocolates 🙂


 F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Downloading and watching HD version of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Check!


Head over heels in love

Annoying day, scary deadlines, but all done. *wipes sweat off dramatically* Its Bubbles Time 😀

Viber stickers rock and the convos there rock as well 😀

So this is Bubbles!!
So this is Bubbles!!

My first trip abroad

Busy week. And I am in the U of the S of the A. Hard to believe.


Going Gaga

Sick, tired and nostalgic. Yet not bummed out. New levels of craziness check.

5 mins?

Loving my new nail color. Need to buy a truckload.


Some Important Dates

2/13 – 2/14 😀 😀 😀

2/21 – 2/22 😀

4/19 – I’m waiting 😀

5/4 – WOW

5/13 – 😀 😀


So how are the days of YOUR life? 

Culture, experience, life, Music

The Wonder That is Music

After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music – Aldous Huxley

Whether it be the soothing melodies or hard-core rock, all of us have sought refuge under music at some point of time in our lives. Some look at music as a hobby; for some music is their passion, while some pursue it as their career. When we listen to music, it evokes something from within one’s heart. I feel that’s what makes music so powerful – to tap into our deepest emotions that we didn’t even know we had. The impact is felt so strongly because of how much it means to you, how much you can relate to those lyrics.

One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain – Bob Marley

Music has the power to shift our feelings from joy to sorrow in a split second. It can bring us back to memories we forgot we had or forward to the world we have yet to create. I sometimes feel that it is cruel, you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness of pain: of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The beauty of nature and everlasting bitterness of monotony. Another brilliant aspect of music is that it manifests itself in so many genres that it can cater to the entire populace. There is something in it for everyone – right from soul melting R&B, timeless classics to hard-core death and metal.

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When at live gigs, the feeling you get when one of your favorite bands come on and play that one song that means so much to you is just unexplainable. There is honestly nothing better than standing arm to arm with thousands of other fans like you listening to the same number and all feeling the same thing from it. The connection and pull that you experience is just ethereal.

Out of a huge list of favorites, with a lot of difficulty I managed to downsize it to these six tracks (in no specific order)

Thamizha Thamizha by Hariharan (A.R.Rahman)
This is song is special to me for many reasons. Debut for one of my favorite singers Hariharan and ARR in the Tamil Industry ; associated with several memories from college. This song gets my blood pumping, heart beating and a wave of patriotism surges within. The beautiful lines coupled with the grand orchestration leaves me overwhelmed.

Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven
To me, this has always been a bed-time lullaby on nights when sleep evades me. This starts out with a melancholic melody and suddenly morphing into more cheerful, quicker and surprisingly even more intense than before. The picture it paints is rich and complex but it is bittersweet and quaint at the same time.

Raaja paarvai Violin by Ilayaraja
In my view, Ilayaraja is one of those composers who can tug at your heart-strings with his “raw” instrumental music in all its glory to leave one spell-bound literally. In this piece he just transitions across scales and styles(Classical, Hindustani and Western) seamlessly and I end up just closing my eyes and relishing the beauty of construction and genius.

Deliverance by Opeth
This is a 10+ minute monster track to say the least – heavy and dark as hell. The song traverses through heavy progressive riffs, acoustic portions(very less mind you), creative drumming and stunning vocals. Then there is a beast of the outro in this track which takes my breath away. Full of energy, air guitaring and drumming.

Maalai Neram by Andrea (G.V.Prakash)
The true joy of listening is not just with your ears, but to just be absorbed by it, the lyrical poetry and finally to lose yourself in it.  This is the perfect song for a lonely day – a slice of heaven in your own lonely world. The husky vocal just makes you go weak in the knees.

High Hopes by Pink Floyd
Always a trip down the memory lane when this song comes on – childhood, friends, laughter, school corridors and all the glorious moments in the past; a song of hope for the future to come. This one literally trips me and ultimately I am left blankly staring at a wall.

A fitting way to end this would be to quote Shakespeare from The Merchant of Venice

The man that hath no music in himself, Nor is not moved with concord of sweet sounds, Is fit for treasons, stratagems, and spoils; The motions of his spirit are dull as night, And his affections dark as Erebus. Let no such man be trusted. Mark the music.

It’s time to get high on music 😀

experience, freedom, friend, life

A Letter to Pessimism

Dear Pessimism,

Subject: Request to Shape up or Ship out

I write this letter to tell you that we are not working out anymore. More often now than before, you pounce on the slightest self-doubt in me and amplify it to scales unimaginable. Every time I find renewed hope and belief, you are patiently waiting to strike again. Your force is beyond measure; Your existence is beyond justification. You make my head spin in vicious circles by posing the conundrum “What If”.  After each bout, I promise to never let myself be controlled by you again. I build higher walls and put more locks but you always manage to find your way back into my head.

I wish we could go back to being how we were in the past. You sought to offer me clarity in thought and sight instead of the mist that swirls inside me these days. I would always look to you for thinking objectively. Whatever you revealed to me was a fact. With a strong belief in self and a pinch of you, I was able to deal with any hiccups in my life. What has changed now? Why are we on opposite teams now?pessimism

I want you to be my friend again; instead of clouding my vision, I want you to be a part of my eyes to see a clearer and brighter future. Can we work this out? Cos how much ever I deny it, I just cannot throw you out of my life.

Inspired by the WordPress Daily Prompt

experience, life, NaPoWriMo, Poetry

Moving On

How do I mend my broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart
You have taken my heart away
But my love grows stronger each day

In the embrace of the dark night
How much ever I try to fight
Your thoughts overflow in my head
A swollen face from the tears shed

Inside our memories I am entirely lost, moving_on
Even though time had gone past.
As if something tugging inside my chest
A feeling not felt since I met you first

Friendship between us materialized
Love bloomed but I did not realize
Moments we shared were precious and few
I cherished them more than you ever knew

My barren heart longs for you
My empty soul dies for you
My melancholic eyes cry for you
My empty arms search for you

I’ve tried hard to get a grip
Not go down with the sinking ship
Striving to lessen the pain
Wondering if I would ever love again

They say being in love is nice
Thence your life is full of spice
They even teach you how to love someone
But forget to tell you how to move on

Poem #16 for National Poetry Writing Month Challenge

experience, life, Love, NaPoWriMo, Poetry, world

See You Again

The morning dawns bright and fresh
A glorious sunny day thence
I spend the hours reliving
The delights I had by your side see_you_again

The sun climbs high crawling on the flesh
The birds hover, flowers dance
I pass the time by seeing
Our memories in the sunlight spread wide

When the twilight creates a mesh
Along a starry road whence
I smile with the moonlight embracing
Because the happiest time of the day is here

The moment I will see you again

Poem #13 for National Poetry Writing Month