What Do You Believe In?

I believe in filter coffee, chocolate and cheese – not necessarily together though either go with every other thing pretty well.

I believe in good music. Not just music that makes you happy, but the kind of music that permeates your very being making you feel and breathe slightly differently.

I believe money can’t buy you happiness but it sure does make doing good to the world a lot easier. I believe that happiness is not a destination but the journey of seeing something ordinary through eyes of wonder.

I believe in good handwriting and manners. I believe in bad comedies with laugh loops and that sometimes it is okay to leap before you look.

I believe that wrinkles on faces are equal to the rings on the tree trunks and that fairness is overrated.

I believe that growing up is dead scary yet manageable and that Nutella with ice cream is godsend! I believe that 90% of what people say when they are kidding is what they are truly thinking and that peacock-blue is the most accepted color for toe nail polish.

I believe that cancer sucks, that the feeling of warmth in your chest when seeing a toothless baby smile is just unparalleled.

I believe that there is nothing funnier than watching a dog chase its own tail, that Opeth totally rocks and that true love is actually possible. I believe that the extra 5 minutes of sleep in the morning goes a long way and so do reading books and poems.

I believe that actions speak louder than words but that the words themselves shouldn’t be subject to a slow, tortuous “hi watzup hru nm hbu” related death.

I believe that sometimes we forget how amazing we truly are and that everything is just going to be fine.

I believe that home-made food, especially pickles are the best, that sometimes it is possible to feel like you have it all or none. I believe that in the future competition will be replaced by co-operation, that equality for all human beings will actually mean something.

I believe in the loud, noisy, belly aching-shaking laughter once in a while, that our beauty and strengths are hidden among what we perceive as imperfections.

I believe in you, me, world peace, serendipity but mainly filter coffee, chocolate, cheese and living – living in a way that is the happiest and the most content you can be. I believe in believing in something regardless of how petty or trivial it may seem because, if you believe in it, its worth believing. Remember that.

Wheels in Motion

For days, I struggled with the dreaded question – What should I write about? It felt like the pipes in my brain had been welded shut and the old rusty ideas were swirling around desperately trying to find an out. It was like constant rejection where I told myself ” Nope. Not this. Not today”.

These hard days are when I have literally push myself to even attempt writing a few lines. Nothing comes easily and even after trying so hard to focus, I feel like Atlas carrying the world. Even after all the whining and grinding, I just shelve it to start afresh. I cannot tell you how many unfinished pieces are cluttered all around my laptop!

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Then there are the easy days where things just click. I simply cannot wait to get started. There are at least five amazing ideas and each one of them turns into something that I would be proud of. Sentences are already taking shape in my head. All I need to do is, direct my hands to the keyboard and type away to glory. The feeling of content that fills me at the end of this is just …. Ah!

Each day is different from the one before and tomorrow is still a mystery. On a few days I struggle and on some I simply don’t. But I realized that what matters is that I continue to write.

Writing is definitely hard work. You have to filter your emotion to the point where you can describe it in its purest form. You have to edit, critique yourself to the point that sometimes self-doubt kicks in. Not satisfied, you subject it to the scrutiny of peers and elders. Even though it may never be perfect you keep at it continuously. Why? Because you are a writer  ;)

Inseparable Love

inseparable_loveThe last time we saw each other was 8 months ago. I loved the way we looked just so perfect together. Not a hair out-of-place. I’d look into the mirror and feel a small smile tugging at my lips. Every time I went out, I swear there were girls who turned green with jealousy.

As time passed, we both grew up. My reflection was changing. It was time to let go. But I knew within my heart that he wouldn’t be gone forever, I knew he’d come back to me, when I wanted him to! Till then, I should try to get used to my new self, I thought.

I started to understand and discover a part of me that wasn’t pretty, didn’t get any attention, but was still likeable. Gradually, I started liking myself more. Have you heard how they say, “It is all in your head…”? Everything was normal again. The sun was still rising in the east, shining brightly and life went on despite the transformation.

And then one fine day, from the bygone depths of time, appeared a sublime image of us inside my head. It was a sign! I realized that it was time to get him back. We were after all meant to be together. I felt my defenses crumbling down.

That is when I went to the stylist and got myself the same hair-cut like the last time. Well, for now, we’re inseparable and in love! :D

Is it Meant to be or Not to be?

More often than not, we have all been asked this question, “Do you believe in destiny?“. Yes, destiny is such a great concept. I wish it were true. I hope it’s true. But I’m just not so sure it is.

 Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker? (Garth Nix, Sabriel)

If destiny exists, then why make an effort? What’s done is done. There is nothing you can do to change the inexorable progression of fate, so why try? People might say: “I’m just born under a bad star/planet. Life has been very unkind to me.” In that sense, I think blind belief in destiny is very dangerous.

Moreover, if you think of yourself as just a mote of dust getting pushed and pulled endlessly by unforeseen forces you’re not going to be too happy.  How much ever we deny it, all of us feel this need to be in control. This locus of control essentially makes you more or less likely to be a go getter and to strive to better yourself. If you have a belief in fate, that certain things are pre-written, then of course this takes away the same responsibility that you might previously have felt and sense of possibility along with it.

The flip side of the coin is it’s nice to think that no matter how badly you screw up today, destiny might have something great in store for you tomorrow. Destiny can serve as a security blanket to help deal with things that we don’t want to understand.

But just simply relying on tomorrow to bring better tidings without any effort will not change anything. Even destiny might not help you if you don’t help yourself. I strongly believe in free will but I have to admit that I do resort to using destiny as a safety net at times. Guilty as charged! :D

I think the only thing that matters is whether we give it our best shot, irrespective of what fate has in store or not.

After all, going down without a fight is the worst form defeat ever! So stay strong and march on..

Sands of Time

Standing,
By herself along
Soothing,
Melodies of a song
Refusing,
Visions of the past
Breaking,
The wicked spell cast
Rejoicing,
At the rays of dawn
Painting,
Images of hope upon
Believing,
In happiness sublime
Moving,
On with the sands of time

Onaayum Aatukuttiyum – My Two Cents

Onaayum Aatukuttiyum (A Wolf and A Lamb) is the recent brainchild of Mysskin, a director known for his unconventional films. He has set the bars high once again with a gripping yet emotional criminal thriller. The movie stars  the director himself and Sri of Vazhakku En 18/9 fame in the lead roles.

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Plot:
The film begins with a medical student Chandru (Sri), who happens to see a badly injured man struggling for life at midnight. When attempts to get the dying man medical attention fail, Chandru takes the matter into his own hands and saves the man’s life. But Chandru and his family are in for a rude shock when CBI officers reveal that the man who Chandru had helped is Wolf (Mysskin), a notorious killer and a wanted criminal. What ensues later is the hunt for the wolf and the subsequent revelations on a story of redemption.

Minuses:
If one has to be really picky, then the movie is a tad too long and the typical style of Mysskin might deter some strata of audience. Of course this is surely not enough reason to skip this edge-of seat thriller completely.

Pluses:
oa_3The brilliance of this movie is in its screenplay and narration. The first half leaves us hanging – totally uncertain of what is happening or may happen. With time the story begins to divulge the main plot. The director cleverly prevents us from being able to form any opinions on the main characters.

The absence of a female lead/songs (which form the main crux of any plot) doesn’t affect the pace of the movie in the slightest. There is minimal dialogue and the studied silence in some parts, extended ones at that, which enhance the suspense element greatly.

oa_2The manner in which the characters have been designed and executed are commendable! Mysskin shines as the Wolf donning the ruthless killer who is trying to for his sins. Sri’s portrayal as the medical student who just wanted to do the right thing is laced with fear appropriately to showcase the dilemma of a common man who is caught up in things beyond his control. Shaji Tom as the CB CID Officer with Keralaite slang doesn’t fail to impress!

Another highlight of the film is the cinematography by Balaji Ranga. All the scenes are shot at night in the deserted roads of Chennai. With very little lighting mostly derived from street lights, he brilliantly creates the right environment for the film. Some of the camera angles in the chase sequences and action scenes enunciate the keen skills of both Balaji and Mysskin’s vision. Kudos!

The music has been scored by the Maestro, Isaignani Ilayaraja. This is a classic example of how re-recording and brilliant background score can elevate a movie to a whole new level. The score is Western Classical in nature solely relying on violins as the main instrument. Without any vocals/chorus, the soulful music carries the movie along till the end. I must admit that the first time I watched the movie, I could not pay a lot of attention to the sound track. I intend on fixing this soon :)

Bottomline:
OA is a cut above Mysskin’s earlier works. He crushes all cinematic clichés and manages to gives us a film we deserve. Watch it for Mysskin and Ilayaraja – you will not be disappointed.

Because

becauseBecause I know you won’t look at me the same way.
Because my dreams will never come true.
Because I will never give up on you.
Because I’ll never be a choice.
Because I just want you to be happy
Because I’ll do anything to make sure you’re okay
Because I’m just your friend.
Because you will never love me.